Updated: May 30, 2022


Why are you drawn to a celebrity and not the car salesman or Doctor or a trusted family friend? Why is it no one else seems to strike a fire within you? You observe this one celebrity over time that you felt drawn to and try to figure it out yet, you still can’t shake them from your mind. Let’s say after you have read my most clicked on article YES, YOUR TWIN FLAME CAN BE A CELEBRITY, and you awaken to the idea that your Twin Flame is indeed a celebrity, you are NOT just some obsessive super-fan. You know your not a super-fan because you’ve met some super-fans online and you felt so insignificant compared to them. You can’t match their obsessive fanism. What you know just is. Whats the next phase? What does it mean? What do you do? How do we go about it? Can we treat it like the other Twin Flame connections?


There’s not much out there on the web about this dynamic. Many people feel we are in ego by saying our Twin Flame is a celebrity. My heart loves a man that happens to be a celebrity. God put this love there. Going into the Twin Flame communities and we can be viewed negatively so we stay silent or never mention it or speak very indirectly on fear of being judged and criticized. There’s something about our dynamic that triggers so many and we need a different type of support from the “regular” twin flames. Here is an example of a know-it-all supposed to be a twin flame “teacher” that disagrees that God can create a celebrity /non-celebrity dynamic:

Being in a celebrity/non celebrity dynamic sure don’t give you much support out there in the communities or other services that are being offered to the non-celebrity Twin Flames. I hope to achieve filling in the missing elements that is needed between celebrity/non celebrity Twin Flames dynamic. I mean, I am one of a non celebrity counterpart to a major celebrity. Also, because once you reach physical Union, you are no longer a “commoner” and need not worry about those naysayers who are against us!

Are they aware?

Is your celebrity counterpart awakened to the reality of your connection? Are they aware in the physical world and not just in fantasy, dreams or in thought? Are you both in vibrational alignment? Billy and I haven’t been in a balanced vibrational alignment to bring us together and it’s probably why I needed to go to him a few times in the past, unconsciously, of what I was actually doing, to help give a little push to move things along, no matter how slow we were coming together. I also didn’t believe in soulmates so, there’s that issue as well. (If you want to read about this part in my journey of anti-love, you can read it here: Chapter (29) TWO-9: I Don’t Believe In Love)

According to our Ultimate Timeline that I’ve created and other things I’ve found and posted on this blog, we’ve always had some type of alignment. We seem to have an off the charts Quantum Entanglement! There’s something here that can’t be explained. Do you have this with your celebrity twin?

I have also question and doubted the existence of soulmates. For some unknown reason, learning about Billy Corgan being significant to me just automatically “clicked” and felt so right. I have began my own research of the topic of Twin Flames and where we can find them in sacred scriptures, texts and other ideas you may read here: ARE TWIN FLAME REAL? ARE THEY MEANT TO BE?

William and I first made eye contact in March of 2000. (You can read about my story here: Chapter (05) ZERO-five: My Fandom and first meeting.) You can say we have really dragged this thing out on a linear timeline, but it has served a purpose, because I’m now able to share this story. There would be no unfolding story to tell the world if we just started to get a little busy on the table as soon as we met! “Here I Am.” “There you are.” Boom! Start banging like rabbits! (This is about a good of an answer I can come up with to why things are the way they are!)

With the blessings of social media, you can find yourself in fan communities or your counterparts own personal social media page(s) and perhaps physically do meet and greets and performances in person! You may need to put yourself out there a little so the celebrity counterparts physical body is aware of your existence and your not just a pipe dream to them. They could be so blinded by their own ego or stuck in a dark world. There’s so many conspiracy theories about Hollywood elite, they could be so lost within that matrix world.

A celebrity will most certainly feel drawn towards you in some form. In my experiences before social media, Billy Corgan most definitely showed signs that he knew my presences. You can read about my stories here on this blog My Twin Flame Journey with Billy Corgan

Some people might say that a celebrity won’t show any signs of any interest whatsoever! I don’t believe that to be the case at all. They might be subtle and you could have over looked it, but I believe you’ll notice a interest. It just might not be so in your face with bells and whistles and confetti magically appearing from the sky and the entire world stopped and staring at you both with angels playing trumpets, cue the violinist and harp player filling in as a background track. That’s an artistic fantasy you’ll only read in romance novels or see in a movie. I feel some of the ones who say that they didn’t notice their twin noticing them is not very good at people reading and a possibility of seeking out a romanticized love story. Brush up on people reading and body language. Pay attention! You could also be stuck in a negative thinking that you didn’t even notice the obvious body language presented to you.

Depending on your situations and where you are at along this journey, I am going to proceed with an assumption for this article that there has been some type of meeting between you and them, especially online and/or in the physical world. Online is where so much can happen in our modern society and how lucky we are to have evolved to these types of digital meetings! Twin flames can now be together more than ever!

Bait and Hook phase

There is this online game that celebrities play that is so passive aggressive. When you catch it, it might seem cute and fun at first. The issue that can arise is how long it’s being dragged out! Indirect message? Are they “mirroring” me? Awakened or unawakened on their part, this can be a bit awkward, confusing, creepy and annoying!

You want to see if they will respond to a direct message from you but instead, you’ll be blocked and/or ignored. They will continually “mirror” you in some form, daily and even exhibited telepathy, but you can’t get a response from them personally. This is so frustrating! Just send a direct message if you like me! What gives? I’m not buying that shy part because they seem fine to get it from elsewhere.

This is what I am calling the Bait and Hook phase. It’s very much narcissistic on the surface. Just know, you have their attention. it’s everywhere. You even decided to try my methods that I showed on this blog to determine the reality of your situation. You are not crazy! You feel it. It’s even there in your face with your timelines. Countless of synchronicities, dreams! You felt that bubble! Your chakras were/are lit! There is way too many coincidences to cast it aside.

I’m going to tell you, even with all of this insanity, this is wonderful discovery! Why? They are your twin flame! This is it honey! (Or…you have a narcissistic moron.)

You’ve met up, made eye contact, even if just a few seconds of time. They are showing signs in the digital world. You probably even befriended some super-fans as digital friends. You probably also made enemies! And an added bonus, if they are like my twin, and still with a karmic, they will try and have a child on your birthday!

Wow! Would you look at that!

Talk about a stab in the back and smack in the face! Here he was showing signs indirectly and everywhere of wanting to be in Union! See this example!

This was a tough trigger for me in knowing he tried to have a child and create me! Twisted and sick but I try and view it positively (I usually end up on the twisted and sick side but I’m really trying!) Now there’s a child, a living being that he created for the rest of his life and a consistent reminder. I wouldn’t be surprised if she was due on my birthday, the 3rd of October. God was not allowing him to have a child right on my birthday. This is so deceptive.

I have to remind myself, he couldn’t be with me and have children with me because he can’t handle the intensity of our energies together so he stays with someone he feels less for, if anything at all, and planned on making a child as a symbol of his true love for me. Yeah, talk about a slap in the face to the female in relationship with him. I guess she favors being treated like crap just so she can say she has his physical body in spite, for I don’t know what reason. This mindset some women have, I’m sorry, but I can’t process it. Especially since she is well aware of his feelings towards me and who I am. But she wanted to play this role of bat shit crazy and “trapping a man” by getting herself pregnant when he was just using her for sex. And now, since they already had one, if she’s this insecure and sticks around, he’ll just use her as a vessel to conceive full blooded siblings!

How do I know that she knows exactly who I am? I went to his teahouse for a few performances in 2016. This one day I stood in the back watching and every time he looked up he looked right at me. I watched Chloe standing off to the side looking back and forth at us. You would think she was watching a tennis match! Click here for my story.

It’s like, you know lady, you could have “trapped” a much younger and more famous celebrity rather than someone like Billy Corgan who’s not going to return to his popularity in the mid 90s and find someone more suitable for you and show you more love than he ever did or will! But, here we are! An insecure woman who wants a pity party for staying in a toxic situation. As one saying goes, perhaps the real winner is the one who got away.

Billy, is like Bill, the father of my children (and many other relationships). Bill once told me, he decided to marry his wife because he felt “it was the right thing to do” by getting her pregnant and so he stayed in a unhappy relationship for 13 years. Regardless that it was “open”, he didn’t mess around while she did. I don’t know about Billy’s situation, if they are open or not, but I believe he stayed “for the child” and now children.

So, here is how I am to view this surreal scenario:

Billy Corgan is my fanboy. Apparently so is Chloe. She has a girl crush on me. I’ll have to break her heart gently as I can. Here it goes…Dear Chloe: Thank you for your interest. I hate to disappoint you, but I have no interest in a romantic relationship with anyone who has the same genitalia as me. I’m aware there are many that lean towards homosexuality or bisexuality in the elite world, but I’m going to clear some things up here. I prefer dicks. I love everything about dicks. Real flesh and blood dicks not that silicone plastic shit. A dick that if it were cut, it bleeds and not have wires or is hollow or whatever else. A dick attached to a human body since birth. I know I only want one dick, not many dicks. I don’t want all of these other dicks showing up, exposing and presenting themselves to me, just Billy Corgan’s. Can you honestly say you want and desire, heck, I’ll even throw in the words, crave and yearn, only one dick? Do you not like Billy’s dick and that’s why you can’t crack a sincere smile in pictures with him? I guess my counterpart don’t lick your clit as well since you can’t even be happy standing next to him. That smile you had on that cat cover magazine looked fake as fuck! It’s even more entirely fake because they edit his left hand. You guys ain’t ever happy when I seen you both together. You didn’t even make any type of contact at the Christmas party. What, no kiss? No hug? There wasn’t even any of that to try and get me jealous! What would be wise, is for you to let go of Billy’s dick and hand it to me. He’ll be in good hands with me and you can go find a dick you can be truly happy with, unless you really do prefer females. I can’t help you with that. I have no attraction to other females in that way, regardless if my job sometimes requires me to pretend play because for some reason a lot of men want to be with 2 females at the same time. My job didn’t break me and make me gay. All those years and I still prefer to suck a dick over licking a clit (yes, I just typed that). Giving an example, if I was FORCED to choose between sucking 100 random dicks or licking one clit, I’d most definitely choose to be very busy for however long it would take to suck 100 random dicks. Sober! I’d do it in a heartbeat without being intoxicated but for that single clit licking, I’m going to have to be blacked out drunk, which means, close to dead, because I still have too much self awareness and control buzzed. I have way too much self awareness and will power (Like I already stated, I only want one dick so I really don’t want to suck 100 random dicks. BUT sucking one dick, as my entire blog is based one a single man, Billy Corgan, 100 times in a day, if possible and if a single man could handle such an event, I’d entirely do it!) I’m a proud cock sucker! I know it may sound extreme, but I am making a point. I am just so far as anyone can be in desiring to be with the same sex. I am so far from being a lesbian. Lesbians use toys and oral sex and I’m telling you I can’t get into fake cocks, I need the real deal attached to a living breathing man. I was pissed drunk those few times I tried with swingers! Yes, with Swingers! I couldn’t just be with a straight up lesbo, there had to be a man involved. I really did try! Sorry. (In case you’re wondering, apparently I have skills to make both sexes satisfied and happy) I wish you all the best in finding your true happy, dick or clit. Billy and his dick can be satisfied with me and I’ll happily smile standing next to him with a huge smile on my face all proudly because I find him irresistible, amazing, awesome, handsome, sexy and an entire list of positive attributes I posted before. (If anyone wants to read all my mushy stuff dedicated to William, you can fund it here: I Love Billy Corgan). I’ll make sure he’s smiling happily as well. Don’t you or anyone else think for a moment that after all those years of being a “fan” that I didn’t observe or recognize or know how I feel about Billy Corgan. My love will outlast and outshine any infatuation he has with anyone else. As Sammy Hagar sang “true love will never die or not fade away”. Thank you for birthing this precious baby to me, in my honor. I appreciate you!

(If William wants to read all about these other thoughts that I had of him surface the pass few years since this entire thing began that I never thought of before, he can message me himself and I’ll send him a link to the private blog with passwords. No, I’m not talking about my I Love Billy Corgan blog or my old journal page you stalked. Your man parts will love it! I believe your higher self is saying you do. Who knows, maybe it’ll be one of those situations where you’ll never see it. I’ve been having fun with it, like what Abraham Hicks says to have fun and raise your vibration and be happy without the manifestation and I feel it has been helping with raising my vibrations. Thanks babe. Well, let me know!

Anyway, of course, I had to consider that Billy Corgan doesn’t really actually want love. He wants a sour puss faced person he can stand next to on occasions so he can play victim and sing his Mellon collie songs. There’s consistency in his dating history. How often was Yelana pictured smiling next to him?


Out of the ones I knew he was with, I did like Yelana better. I mean really Yelana>Courtney. I knew nothing about the one he was briefly married to.

Or all the other ones with fake smiles? Is anyone actually happy with him or do they all need to be high to smile in pictures? I don’t believe for one second that Courtney ever loved him either. The claim she tells Kurt that Billy was the best fuck is her Narcissistic way of playing both of them. Because why she leave Billy for Kurt then marry him and also screw so many other? A bunch of Horse crap. I surrender to the fact that Billy just wants to find a temporary parking space for his penis and every so often change it up. How unfortunate he got someone knocked up, but I think he was played. ALL These Things I’ve Been Told


Since being on this path, I have chosen to walk the celibate life. Yes, I’ve been on this path, since November 2015. Im not jumping from relationship to relationship. That’s so dumb. I’m not desperate and need to cling to a person for the sake of fearing being alone. I’m not doing anything with anyone, male nor female. I wrote a bit about my own celibate journey here: CHAPTER 31 (THIRTY-ONE): MY JOURNEY WITH CELIBACY

It appears that perhaps, the celebrity doesn’t know how to handle this intense situation. They behave like Superfans towards you, even if you were never like a Superfan towards them! I guess we can view it as, it’s all they know. This is very important though, in understanding what’s happening. So, I’m calling it out:


I examined the difference between Superfan and the non celebrity Twin in my other article. YES! YOUR TWIN FLAME CAN BE A CELEBRITY This is where we get stuck as a community. We don’t understand their behavior because we aren’t the celebrity, we are living normal non-famous lives that they aren’t. In their world, someone trying to having a child on your birthday, is considered a high honor, not a sign of a mental illness. I did not try to have a child near Billy Corgans birthday. My son in November,  my daughter in July and both “oops.” This is what Superfans do! They mirror what the Superfans do, to you. They could also secretly gotten a tattoo of you on them. Perhaps even a room full of memorials! Who knows, the possibilities are endless when it comes to super-fans! Our Twins karmic partner might even treat it as such, like in non celebrity lifestyle relationships.

For example, imagine going out to a show with your significant other in your non celebrity relationship and your partner is all starry eye to the performer on stage. Do you fight when you get home? I know people that use this as a “fantasy” or role play. The non starry eye partner might jump on this as a means to get laid because now their partner is sexually aroused and they might not have had sexual intercourse in a while. So, in essence, this behavior is encouraged. Sex therapist and relationship “experts” will consider this fantasy behavior as normal and not as emotional or mental cheating or even spiritually raping a person while self pleasuring to reach an orgasm. There’s so much more happening with these energetic exchanges then meets the eye. Fantasy with holding someone in your mind and self pleasure can be viewed as a form of spiritual rape. (I can happily say I never found masterbation enticing and rarely done it myself. But to sit and think how many times I could have been spiritually raped because of my job, boggles my mind. So I don’t think about it.)

I see this type of behaviors in the strip clubs I work in. Couples will come in to the clubs. The woman thinks she’s the “cool” partner by going with her man. Some are cool and polite to us dancers but others are cruel and nasty towards dancers unless you fit the females idea of perfection in her mind (which is usually someone who is just like her) regardless if the male is very much interested in another dancer, she’ll attack you with crude remarks or get all snotty and cocky. I do not understand these types of females going into our clubs and acting like this. This is all ego and possessiveness. This is a whole other topic that is not going to be added to this article so, I’ll leave it.

As you can see in this example, your celebrity counterpart is projecting Superfan behavior to you! You are now the performer on stage and they are the starry eye fan! The partner they arrived with is the one they go home to and doing their form of roll play that their partner views as nothing in particular and probably even encourages it so they can have some illusional intimacy with your souls counterpart while in a heightened state.


I took it upon myself to travel this path and put it all out there, so you don’t have to! I give examples and share my story to give you something to ponder. What you choose to do is up to you!

First, I’m going to ask you one question: Were you activated? Have your chakras stared vibrating? If you know what I’m talking about, go here: ONCE YOU HAVE BEEN ACTIVATED.

Let’s start with some disappointing news

This is where I’m going to have to give you some disappointing news! How exciting! I’m sure you have an inner sense of this of what must take place, for you, the non celebrity counterpart, for your growth. You probably already know in your heart. Are you ready to read the words as confirmation? Deep breath.

The Fandom

Were you a “fan” in some way before becoming aware? Did you made your presence known in the physical world? Have you mingled online, made some eye contact for a few seconds in the physical world, made a few fan friends along the way? Now, I’m going to tell you, you must stop being a fan. Yes! You read that correct. You must stop being a fan! I know. So simple right? Especially now since you became so entangled with the fan energy while online. This must happen. You see, this is a part of “surrender”, letting go and having faith in God and the unknown. Your heart has probably been crushed. I know. It’s devastating! You’d rather die than pull away from their social media and turn off Google notifications and tell YouTube to stop recommending videos of your beloved. Become blind to your counterparts physical body.

When I say end the fandom, I don’t mean go and have a bonfire of all the albums, books, movies etc of physical world materialistic items that you have already collected. What I mean is to end all the online stuff. Put all of your collected items in a storage bin, and put it away. You don’t need a bonfire. You need physical world social media Detachment. Yes, even social media itself should be limited and not for stalking your Twin Flame. Go old school, like before the Internet came around when it comes to your Twin Flame.

This must be done so you can focus on you and your life circumstances. The journey is not about romance and obsessively watching your twin flame through social media. The Twin Flame Journey is a spiritual path. Your counterpart is a bonus. They are the cherry and sprinkles on top of the Sundae.

Asking ourselves: Why was I fan before awareness?

Simple: we didn’t know what it was. Don’t get me wrong, there’s probably a reason why we became fans before being aware. Big name people that have been in the industry for a long period of time (mine is over 30+ years) hold more weight with influence of a huge population. It also gave us time to get to know them, indirectly, know their life story. Know the players in their lives. Know their ups and downs. It gave us the reassurance to know that we stand our ground with them. We know how we feel towards them with all those “others” and no matter what “others” show up, it doesn’t change a thing, even when we walk away and focus on ourselves.

Being a fan before awareness is like being a long time friend before becoming lovers, correct? It’s not going to benefit you to bang your head against the wall wonder how did you not know? So, take it as a long time soul friendship, even if your time in the physical was very minimum, if anything at all.


Let’s make clear, when I say detachment, I don’t mean cancel culture thinking. We are simply setting them aside. We can’t just cut off the entire world, let alone our Quantum Entanglement. Cancel Culture will cancel an innocent person over rumors or things unproven. Twin Flames, we probably already have a list of stupid shit that our beloved has done but love them unconditionally and still want to be there for them, but we have to turn away because of the intense energy that causes the other twin to “Run.” There’s no forgiveness in cancel culture. Twin Flames are not a part of cancel culture, even if detachment might seem that way on a surface level. Inwardly, we know that’s not possible. We are one! We are redirecting our focus off of them. Our intention is much different from cancel culture. We hurt being separated from them and not getting a response because we just desire to love them. Our detachment is for our own sanity.

THE DETACHMENT PHASE of the non celebrity counterpart

Remember, if you truly love somebody, set them free. Give them wings to fly. You’ll probably still somehow get information about them in the physical world. Their higher selves are always sending you information, especially if they are your true twin flame. (Yes, I hate using the word true Twin Flame but many like to say there are false twin flames or many who like to claim a celebrity as a twin flame that are not, etc so I would like to clarify more with the word true. There’s only ONE) Let go of the physical body. Let go of online stalking. Turn off notifications of articles. Unfollow all of their social media. Stop listening, watching movies, reading books or whatever is their medium. Drop all of it. Yes, time to let go of co-dependency. Stop using their art to connect or fill your heart space. As Twins, you are always connected and the physical body or their art creations are not needed in this connection. You are going to only work energetically, and only focus on you.

You will fail probably many times during the beginning stage. You will cry. You will experience such pain that feels like you are ripping your own heart out. You are cutting off a limb. You are pulling particles out of yourself. Perhaps you will experience withdrawal symptoms. It must be done. It’s going to take some time. It is a process like everything else. That’s also why it’s called a journey. It’s all about the journey, not the destination. You will fall a hundred times and get back up a hundred and one times. Fixing your crown and dusting yourself off. You may even consider it like the game of Shoots and Ladders! That one dreaded slide once you are nearing the top! But, you can do this! Because one day, those slides will disappear and you’ll just keep ascending upwards. But don’t be fooled, because sometimes a slide will reappear again, but you’ll learn not to slide own as far and maybe that one long dreadful slide will be cut in half or you learn how to jump off.

Remember: You are not a fan. That’s an illusion. You are them. You must learn to let go of the physical form of the other you. Their art is also a physical form for us, the non celebrity twin that needs to be let go. But the end goal is physical Union, correct? Learning to let go and set them free is vital. You must free yourself from co-dependency, otherwise you are just a possessive Superfan. You are not a Super-fan! You are not someone they should be cashing off of. Super-fans are the materialistic ones. Super-fans are the ones who put the celebrity where they are. A strong super-fan base will keep them there. You are their divine counterpart. Let the super-fans be Super-fans, they have their own life lessons to work through.

Believe me when I say, if you would have told me back in let’s say 2005, ten years after being a “fan,” that there will be time I won’t be listening to Billy Corgan…I would have laughed at you in your face and say: “That will NEVER happen!!!” Actually, I believe I really did have a conversation like this of sorts when I went to the club I would meet the father of my children. There was a DJ there that I worked with from another clubs maybe 5 years before. He would asked if I was still a Smashing Pumpkins fans. I can’t recall the actual conversation though. If I run into DJs from past clubs I worked at, and they are now at another club, this would most definitely be a question asked from them.

In reality, what will NEVER happen is energetic separation. I can detach from his music, I can detach from anything about his physical vehicle, but I remain unseparated from him. I rarely seen him in person. Our physical bodies have been apart for a long time, and we never communicated. I did stop listening to music for a period of time when I became a mother. I was not listening to him but many times the “thought of him” was still there. Oh why, why do I still have these “thoughts” of Billy Corgan and no one else? I wasn’t even listening to his music anymore! He still goes on! I don’t think this way with other celebrities. Why should I concern myself with what he’s doing or if he put out new music?

You are your celebrity’s counterpart Queen/King; their Empress/Emperor; their Goddess/God.

Look at it this way, if you were in an actual physical relationship with them, as their spouse, would you be needing to buy everything they sell you? Are you buying seats to the show or did their record company reserve you a seat? Do you need backstage passes or should the fact you are wearing the wedding ring from your famous counterpart gave you to let you in? You don’t want to be a fan. You want physical Union! That’s why you must drop the fan crap. Start behaving like Royal Spouse of your famous counterpart not like a screaming fan girl!

You need to feel good inward without them. Learn to align yourself without them being with you physically or using their art to align yourself. Align with your own inner source. Align directly from Source/God. Don’t align by going through your counterpart like a middle man or dare I say, using them like Jesus. If you need a middle man, that’s why Jesus came here. Use Jesus as a middle man if you need a middle person to align, not your counterpart. Jesus gave himself up so humans may use him to connect with the divine source if they feel unworthy. As a Twin Flame, you align both with source and your counterpart, but you can’t be unbalanced and put so much focus on your beloved. Walk away from their physical form, connect to them and source, energetically.

Also remember, they are YOU! You ARE them! They are you walking around in another body. We are much larger then a single body! Twin Flames are TWO bodies ONE soul. You are listening to your own music! YOU wrote the music. You stared in those movies. You wrote those series of books. You painted those art pieces. No, not your physical body, but your one soul. You are living their life, in another body, in another expression.

Stop looking at the grass on their side, and make the grass on your side green. Things not going well for you, might be going well for them. Things NOT going well for them, might be going well for you! Opposite polarities.

The Massive Ego

There is also this idea about celebrities having huge massive egos and it shows up as Narcissism. Does your counterpart have this? Do people say they have a huge ego when they meet them? A humbled celebrity may be rare person. Our celebrity counterparts will most likely have a massive ego.

Ego is not necessary bad in itself, because it is our identity, but it can grow in huge amounts if not kept in check.

What could be the cause of a massive narcissistic ego for a celebrity Twin Flame counterpart? I concluded that it’s possible because we became a fan, but don’t quote me entirely, because it seems my Twin was building up his own narcissism ego before I knew who he was. We share the same energy. Could I have contributed to his massive ego? We are one soul in two bodies. The celebrity counterpart have energies from soul ties that the Superfans attached to them. They also have energies from people they have had sexual relationships with. It’s not just your own energy being given to them. All this energy attention is so focused on the one counterpart, while we’ve gotten little. The energies are unbalanced. Envision a scaled. Are you dumping all your energy onto their side? What about your side of the scaled? I don’t believe we could have been solely responsible for a massive ego growth in our counterpart, but we do must take our own power back.

Pulling yourself away can feel like death in the beginning. We must refocus. The celebrity counterpart never learned how to balance all of that energy being thrown at them with soul ties and sexual partners and other life events that happened during childhood, etc. The celebrity counterpart have became energy vampires! (Ah! See what I just did there? Billy Corgan was projecting when he voiced “The WORLD is a vampire. It was him all along, an energy vampire. His ego was probably growing so big during this time.)

We could be unintentionally giving so much love to them if you end up listening to their music a trillion times over. Don’t be hard on yourself though. We are all learning as we go along. This celebrity/non celebrity dynamic, let alone Twin Flames in general, is entirely new to us. Twin Flames have been around for a long time, but technology and the World Wide Web is opening so many new eyes. Unions with twin flames is entirely being fueled by the internet and social media.

Check out my article ARE TWIN FLAME REAL? ARE THEY MEANT TO BE? I go into where to find twin flames in sacred religious scriptures and other texts.


When I hear people talk about twin flames being here to create a new template, actual love marriages was extremely rare throughout human history, so a physical union of Twin Flames, the all loving ideal relationship, is the new template. As I mentioned in my other article about the history of love in humanity from the author Stephanie Coontz, marring for Love was extremely rare. So please, don’t beat yourself up over any of this when you learn your souls counterpart is worldly famous.

It’s also worth mentioning that many believe we choose our paths before birth. I believe the celebrity/non celebrity dynamic is amongst the most difficult and most rewarding of all the dynamics. It’s not that we are something special but I believe it’s the one that will have the most impact on a massive worldly scale. Take all focus off of them and what their physical body is doing and work on your own physical body and the world around you.


I heard about this from others and seem to have my own set of negativity thrown towards me from Billy Corgan. We must look beyond them, meaning their physical bodies. For our own sanity, we must walk away and “detach.” Their Ego will attack us. Using A Course In Miracles it teaches us this:

The ego thinks it is an advantage not to commit itself to anything that is eternal, because the eternal must come from God.

A Course In Miracles

As a Twin Flame, we are their divine counterpart, created by God. We did not create ourselves, therefore we will be viewed as the enemy by their Massive Ego. I don’t believe they can cause physical harm to us, their other half. They would only hurt themselves. God keeps us protected from any such attacks. I have debated over the idea about Narcissism that some people are teaching that Twin Flames are this type of relationship when, no, I do not believe this. You may read that article here: NO! TWIN FLAMES ARE NOT NARCISSISTIC! Also, in my other article ARE TWIN FLAME REAL? ARE THEY MEANT TO BE? I try giving a visual of Law of Attraction amongst Twin Flames and how it doesn’t work between Twin Flames so we will not attract each other if this type of energy is present between the pair.


When you fully let go of being a fan, and all social media, shows, articles etc, you need to:

  • Be ok with not knowing or understanding where you are with your connection to your souls counterpart.
  • Be ok for not knowing what you know now.
  • Be ok, with not being in physical Union.
  • Be ok with not knowing anything about who they are with nor what they are doing
  • Be ok to being blind to their physical body.

Let them come to you. Let them start bringing focus to the other side of the scale. By you being a fan, you are not in receiving mode. You keep giving them energy and focus. Now that they know who you are, you know who you are, you know about your connection, your counterpart is aware of your connection, it takes time for the celebrity counterpart to learn to redirect energies and learn discernment.


As the words you don’t want to hear, all in divine timing. Be patient with them. They are waking up from their Hollywood Elite Matrix of that fake world. They are a part of an illusion inside of another illusion. We can’t say for sure how deep of a rabbit hole they got themselves into within the Hollywood Elite Matrix, we can only speculate. They have become puppets to the Elite. Our celebrity non celebrity dynamic has so many layers compared to all the other twin flame dynamics with the one counterpart involved with the Rich/Hollywood Elites. Until our counterparts cough up truth and approach us, we can only have faith that the divine will handle our situation. We just need to let go. Drop them like a hot pumpkin and focus on you! (Like my puns?)

Level Up

You can probably view ending the fandom as leveling up. Congratulations! You are now on a different path! You are now mastering you! You are taking the focus off of your counterpart’s physical form and their art, to release co-dependency so they can also learn to balance the energies between you. I don’t know how long this stage lasts because I’m learning as I go along! I can let go of his physical form but I can’t get him out of my inner being, my mind! This stage is where you need DISTRACTIONS!


May I make some suggestions as to where to start your focus as you detach and recenter to balance yourself without them? This is all I can offer you. Here are some ideas to also help assist with healings. These are just some ideas from me.

Make peace with your religion of origin: It was your foundation. Get back to God/Allah/the divine. You don’t need to be a full devoted person to the religion, but make peace with it. Stop throwing shade at it. I know many people throw shade at Christianity and Catholicism in particular within the spiritual community. I’m going to suggest, make peace with it, regardless of any negative experiences. This area needs to be healed.

Make peace with your family bloodline: These areas also need to be healed. Be humbled. I’m aware of some family dynamics that are toxic. Again, make PEACE, even if it’s only in your own mind.

Check your thought patterns: What thoughts go through your mind? Are they positive or negative? Evaluate the self talk within you. Learn to shift the negative thinking patterns into more positive ones. Try using chants and mantras. I find many of these helpful.

FITNESS: Go to the gym. Run a treadmill! Take walks in nature. If your a parent of young ones, take them with you! Feel the energy and excitement of innocence watching them play.

CHECK YOUR DIET: It seems many people that are “Twin Flames” begin walking and preaching the Vegan path. I don’t believe in forcing people to walk a particular path because I don’t believe in a one size fits all situation. Many seem to want to push the vegan lifestyle and that’s not how I roll. I don’t believe being Vegan is a prerequisite for Twin Flame Union. (My children’s father has no desire to become Vegetarian let alone Vegan. He’s also in a Twin Flame connection) If being Vegan is not ideal for you, start small and check your sugar and salt intakes. Cut out junk foods like candy and soda. Minimize fast food. Buy more organic and free rang meats and dairy. Try to buy directly from a local farmer, support local businesses.

I was Vegan for 7 1/2 years from about 1997 to 2005. Billy Corgan did not manifest in my physical life and it appearers he was even resisting and went in the other direction. You may read more about this here: CHAPTER 30 (THIRTY): VEGANISM. This time around, I’m doing things differently, with an awareness of being a Twin Flame. After many years of being on a “see-food diet” and two children later, I decided to start walking that Vegan path again during the pandemic of 2000. Yet, I’m not fully Vegan. I’m watching my health and food again and started learning about Medical Medium protocols. Again, I don’t believe being Vegan is a prerequisite for union. Watching the types of food you eat and taking better care of your health is necessary overall, it’s not just for physical union with your counterpart.

Meditation. This time around I’m finding it hard to get into. I may unconsciously being resisting just like Billy did when I began this spiritual path in early 2000s. This is us though so I have things I need to work on and for us to stop the inner fights. Don’t let me and his inner conflicts infect you. I also became a mother and this can be difficult when the children are around.

Many agree with morning meditations before you start your day. You can find many teachings and audio online. Find the right one for you.

MINIMIZE SOCIAL MEDIA: I’m also at fault with this for a while now, especially since after learning I was a Twin Flame. I was in groups and started to fall into all of those “traps”. I was learning and absorbing everything like a sponge. This is a hard habit to break. The entire world is being directed to go online and even business and governments want us so totally connected. This might be a difficult area for many of us and especially now after all the lockdowns from 2000. Please check yourself in this area. Minimize your use of social media. Learn to go more inwards and listen to intuition. Also, too much social media takes away time from your real world interactions and doing meditation and getting in touch with family and nature.

BOUNDARIES: Do you have them? If not, and your just a person who says yes to everything when you want to say no, you may need to work on this area. If people take advantage of you, you need to learn to step up and defend yourself. Don’t let anyone walk all over you. If you don’t set boundaries, people will learn to walk all over you. This area probably doesn’t need be repeated by me as there are many books out there that will go in detail about setting boundaries for yourself.

YOU MAY NEED TO CUT PEOPLE OUT: This one might be a bit difficult for some people. For most cases you need to learn to set boundaries, for others, you may need to entirely cut off and move on. You are on your journey of ascension and lower level energy people will be drawn to you to keep you in the matrix world. This can be anybody, family, “friends”, co workers, or even people that are said to be on a spiritual journey. There’s a point in time, where you can only learn and grow so much within a group that you need to move on. I realize there was a point in time with being in the Facebook twin flame groups, I had to leave. It can keep you stuck. How much more could I learn? How much help could I offer? Then they keep you on that level. I’m giving away too much of my own energy instead of inner focus. I ended up leaving Facebook altogether. Be mindful where and whom you are giving your energy to. Not everyone in those groups are on a true twin Flames journey. They can begin to fill your mind with doubt because the person they thought was their Twin Flame wasn’t. So, now they are hateful and want to spread their hate to others because it wasn’t fair that they didn’t get what they wanted. Not every teacher is a true teacher. For me personally, I don’t know how someone can keep teaching many people on this journey. Many are money grabs because Twin Flames is now a business just like the dating world. True, I have my blogs, but I’m not charging for my discoveries, as I’m currently calling them. I don’t hold sessions with people nor do “healing” work with anyone. I currently believe souls on this path, will find a way to heal themselves. There are some people we probably can’t fully cut out, be it co-workers or family, but we can choose not to share information with them or limit their access to us. This online world is insane. It was so much easier to cut people out and walk away from them before the Internet. Now your jealous haters just follow and stalk you on social media. That’s why it’s also recommended to take social media breaks to cut back on these negative entities, as in the above point to minimize social media.

LEARN TO LISTEN TO YOUR INTUITION: Because Twin Flames is now a business, watch for whom you absorb information from. The Power of Suggestion, other peoples thoughts and opinions can and will influence you. For example, If you listen and/or read tarot readers, they can influence your union so you may need to let them go as well to focus on your own intuition. It’s great on days you hear the positive readings, but as soon you read the YouTube title or listen to a negative reading that you won’t be together, it’ll slow down the union manifestation. It’s meant to do so to keep you “trapped” in co-dependency that someone else has the power to know about your life and connection and to not trust your own intuition. Its meant to keep you in the Matrix and not ascend. They need to hold an audience, and get you to spend money for readings, healings, etc. They are money grabs to draw you in. You are better off just listening to Abraham Hicks audio/Videos on YouTube for free. Don’t get me wrong, some of these tarot readings can become addictive to watch and that they are more interesting then listening to Abraham Hicks for some reason. I believe it’s about drama that connects and causes these soul ties.

Abraham Hicks is about personal empowerment and you are your own creator of your life. Many of these readers and other Twin Flame groups seem to keep you “hooked” by adding drama in their readings. I did find a few that I liked and I try to only view the positive readings. The disappointment sets in when that message that they say is coming, hasn’t arrived. We still need to follow our own intuition. I do like the positive spark that can ignite with a positive reading. I believe the real reason why you will hear Christians condemn tarot say it’s evil and from the devil, because it keeps you from your own intuition. You are giving your power away to an object or person outside of yourself, not because you are going to literally burn in Hell. You are not listening to your intuition. I have been cutting back on watching and reading them, the ones I’m watching currently has been mostly on YouTube I deleted Instagram. I’m feeling a sense of release with readers and twin flame groups. With the Internet it’s almost like breaking an addiction, so it’s a process, don’t beat yourself up! The world is all psychological now with the Internet, so breaking away might take time as you begin to learn to listen to your own intuition.

What I have done, in terms of the tarot readers, is I have a separate YT with all the readers and I subscribed to many of them. I thought that I’m going to follow so many and I’ll soon get bored with them. My idea seems to be working. I scan the titles and read them. Maybe I’ll watch some or parts of a video. People that want me to watch an hour tarot reading or more is insane. I’m not wasting that much time in my day. I’ve been slowly unsubscribing the ones that are too much drama in their titles and with too many negative titles that pull down my energy. Many can also seem very passive aggressive from one reading to the next. You can have one reader that tell you that your person loves you and they will be calling then 3 or so hours later they say that your person is in too much drama with their karmic and got them pregnant but found out the baby isn’t theirs and someone is going to jail or court and your person has a hidden secret that they killed a person and they having incest sex with a cousin/sister and they are angry and jealous of you. Then you’ll find out your person is secretly gay and having sex with a co-worker with a pregnant karmic that is screwing another person so who knows about the baby… but…This person that’s your person is going to call you because they in love. What??!!! I need to remove myself from that down energy. After I unsubscribe and I see YouTube recommended them again, I can hit the three dots and select do not recommend channel. Done. I can also go to one of my other profiles that don’t have tarot readers for other world drama.

I seen a reader post about being obsessed with the Twin Flame journey that had me think, I’m sure that they were projecting. Why are they doing “readings” about generalized energies as they like to call them general readings. Aren’t they more obsessed with doing readings?

If you cannot hear the Voice for God, it is because you do not choose to listen.

A Course In Miracles

If you find yourself going to tarot readers, try to find ones who are mindful and aware of Law of Attraction. You don’t want someone else gunk mixed into your own journey. Do you know anything about many of these readers other than arms, hands, nails and boob size? Some of these headless talking boobs readers, I question who their target audience is. Why does it feel like the focal point is your breast? I don’t need to see your cleavage while looking at the cards! Also, they could be projecting their own story in the readings. Find readers who are aware of the words that they say and how it can affect others. We don’t need added drama from another source when our own heads might be all over the place and trying to center ourselves.

I will post a few recommendations of Tarot readers that I have found and enjoyed when I do watch some of their videos. They have an understanding of Law of Attraction and being the creator of your own life. They are not trying to create a shit drama show and dragging you down with low vibration.

  • Minnow Pond Tarot. His name is Chris and he’s a sun Pisces.
  • Queen of Light 1111
  • Cancer moon Tarot
  • Consciousness Evolution Journey
  • Secret Shaman Oracles
  • Marwan Elkordy
  • Sasha Bonasin
  • New World Allstar His name is Kurt. He’s also considered a Twin Flame coach and does coaching. He also says his twin flame is permanently in his life and married. He has a bunch of videos and also does readings. He likes to talk about the book the Power of Now. Any person that has actually read books and teaches from them is ok in my book. I believe he also has read Neale Donald Walsch, a bonus. He likes to talk about how twin flames are one soul in two bodies in most of his videos, at least all the videos I’ve watched. Repetitive to get it in your head. If id have to recommend a coach, I lean towards him. I’ve been working on my own self because I’ve read many types of books like the ones he teaches from and I have a copy of The Power of Now, but my mind keeps slipping and maybe I had to do what I did here. Check him out if you are considering coaching because I don’t have a desire to coach other then my blogs. Maybe if I’m in physical union I might have a different perspective and start having a desire to coach but at the time of this paragraph (December 2021), I don’t hold this desire.

Readers that are focused on love relationships that seem to be positive and not all that drama. They are not lashing out about someone going to jail or doing horrible things to their kids etc. As Twin Flames, we really don’t need all that mental drama and work on our own vibrations.

Other noteworthy and unique readers:

  • JDS Tarot this guy is a character. Very entertaining.
  • The Majestic Tarot This person don’t just use tarot or oracle decks. She uses water and coffee cups as well.

I personally don’t have time to watch all these readers on a daily basis. I might watch one one day and another another day or none. There’s not enough hours in the day to watch so many. My apologies.

As of December 2021, I have decreased my Tarot following from maybe over 300 to under 50. My plan seems to be working for me, in that I follow so many readers until I get sick of it all and start deleting. I’m also able to focus more do more cleaning up of my vibration. My plan is going well I think.

As of January 2022, I’m down to 20 tarot readers. I unfollowed AllStar as I haven’t been watching his videos anyway. I unfollowed exclusively TwinFlames messages as well. The channel that had all my tarot readers I now follow 95 people and 20 are tarot. There’s been a shift on what I follow there and many are Abraham Hicks, Elon Musk and meditation music and I can’t think of what else on the top of my head. Why Elon Musk? I’ve been learning more about him and we actually have synchronicities and I am able to show a linear timeline for us. Check it out WHAT’S THIS ABOUT, UNIVERSE? ELON MUSK? and Timelines with Others: Elon Musk

As of May 2022, I’m now rarely looking at them. I’ve been telling YouTube to stop recommending a lot of readers. I’m even scrolling past others that show up. I’ve even start watching a reading only to stop watching not even halfway through. Loosing interest. I have also decreased on watching videos related to Elon Musk. I think I’ve learned enough about him.

I know my Twin Flame is into Tarot readings and astrology and things like that. I had a man tell me that I met during VIP in 2016 (he took the picture) that informed me that this guy Justin that was in charge of the VIP stuff, I don’t know what was his job title, but that his mom does Billy Corgan’s readings. I didn’t get into them until maybe 2019?? when I slowly started to watch some of these readers. Know when I say, I’m happy this phase is dwindling. You can waste an entire day doing nothing but watching tarot readers. I don’t know if Billy is still doing this, but you know I’ll be pissed to hear that oh his reader told him I was no good. So, you don’t follow your own heart and intuition? Just a puppet, right? I don’t need a card reader to tell me who my heart loves and how I feel. I have my own direct connection with the divine, I don’t need to be codependent on tarot readers and follow my own intuition.

Anyway, I’m happy that I did our timelines and mirrors between us because to me, it just makes this bond so much more solid and I can trust myself more. I created these blogs using my own intuition and it’s uniquely mine. Again, use discernment if you start watching readers or other Twin Flame mentors. Many may only want to distract you from raising your vibration and keep you in the matrix and not ascend higher. Also, Tarot readers are nothing more but a middle man. You deserve direct communication, especially from your divine counterpart.

Remember: Twin Flames is now a money market. I’m not here offering any healing, readings or anything. Anything I wrote or discovered on my own journey is here free of charge and I haven’t made a single penny even though I did create a donation page. I don’t want money from the masses, I just desire to be with my honey (Thought of a poem: I want my honey, not your money). My ultimate reward shall come from the divine, still with hopes of physical union. I want all of you to know your worth and you have the power to heal yourself. Discernment. Listen to own intuition.

DO NOT ACCEPT MIDDLE MAN TACTICS: Like I just briefly mentioned, you deserve direct communication. You shouldn’t accept “middle men,” News articles, notifications through apps and websites of events, tarot readings, even fake profiles that could be them, everything that isn’t DIRECTLY coming from them. Direct communication is divine. My current thinking is, if we accept these “middle men” we get more of it. So, unsubscribe anything related to them. If they are not directly inviting you or sharing news with you or anything not coming from them personally, you have no business in knowing anything that is happening in their lives. Fake profiles are deceptive, keeping you a “secret” while they egotistically bang anything else that moves. You should be first to know, not last and especially not through middle men. They made their choices, they should be choosing you, make you a priority and putting you in their life not coercion you indirectly to have you keep showing up for them. You have a life to live too! Why waste it playing deceptive mind games? Remember the saying, no response is a response. If they can’t directly speak to you, you need to accept this and move on. Now that you are aware that you are a Twin Flame, do NOT accept middle man tactics.

Our counterparts are in Ego if they can’t communicate. A Course in Miracles explains this ego non-communication reaction:

The ego is thus against communication, except insofar as it is utilized to establish separateness rather than to abolish it. The communication system of the ego is based on its own thought system, as is everything else it dictates. Its communication is controlled by its need to protect itself, and it will disrupt communication when it experiences threat. This disruption is a reaction to a specific person or persons. The specificity of the ego’s thinking, then, results in spurious generalization which is really not abstract at all. It merely responds in certain specific ways to everything it perceives as related.

A Course in Miracles

You are a threat to their ego. The ego can not exist in your presence because you are their divine love, which is from Source/God. Spirit directly communicates, there’s no fear to communicate.

It is in complete and direct communication with every aspect of creation, because it is in complete and direct communication with its Creator. This communication is the Will of God. Creation and communication are synonymous. God created every mind by communicating His Mind to it, thus establishing it forever as a channel for the reception of His Mind and Will. Since only beings of a like order can truly communicate, His creations naturally communicate with Him and like Him. This communication is perfectly abstract, since its quality is universal in application and not subject to any judgment, any exception or any alteration. God created you by this and for this. The mind can distort its function, but it cannot endow itself with functions it was not given. That is why the mind cannot totally lose the ability to communicate, even though it may refuse to utilize it on behalf of being.

A Course in Miracles

This is why we are to work with our own communication with God. Pay no mind to the ego that isn’t communicating directly. Pay no attention to their other tactics to indirectly send messages. God don’t play mind games. Ego plays mind games. You are a creation of the divine itself and communication is divine and holy.

DON’T FEEL BAD FOR THEM: Everyone has self-inflicted wounds. If they aren’t communicating and staying away, it doesn’t matter what their excuse is. Mine is a drama queen. He loves being in discord and attracting all that drama. I prefer to stay away from drama and that’s one reason we don’t attract each other. I loved him from a distance for a very long time.

… and what a beautifully, handsome drama Queen I became in another body…

Billy Corgan is an attention whore. Billy Corgan, the Diva. He even sang that he’s “in love with my sadness”. In other words: Self-inflicted wounds. Attention!! Everyone! Feel bad for Billy Corgan! He’s the only one in the entire world with his set of circumstances! Step away from that drama. Don’t feel bad for them that they chose drama over love. Don’t feel bad for them that they were “afraid of emotional commitment” yet they don’t seem to be afraid to chase after potential STDs infected bodies and get “bat-shit” (those are not my terms, but words men came up with) crazy females pregnant being a community dick. Instead of being in a emotionally stable relationship and having children in a loving relationship, they chose to be in toxic relationships and reproduce with someone who will never love them just because they were afraid of catching “feelings” or “feel too much”. God forbid they show that they have love emotions that isn’t associated with sex and getting high on drugs. Singing in songs that they “need a lover” but all they actually cared about was getting high, having an orgasm with a steady fuck body to park their penis and play manipulative mind games with. Don’t feel bad for their drama. Walk away, love from afar. Don’t stalk on social media, unless you love being triggered and being pulled down to the lower vibrational levels they engulfed themselves in.

But if Billy really likes to shout and yell all the time, God has that covered. He can shout and yell at me all the time, as I’m hearing impaired! 😂 CHAPTER 27 (TWO-7): ALL ABOUT MY HEARING

BE HAPPY: In A Course in Miracles it states “I am teaching you to associate misery with the ego and joy with the spirit.” If your situation manifested, with them choosing the entire world over you, and they are showing all sorts of drama unfolding in their life, don’t feel bad nor pity their choice. This is also taught right before this statement:

How can you teach someone the value of something he has deliberately thrown away? He must have thrown it away because he did not value it. You can only show him how miserable he is without it, and slowly bring it nearer so he can learn how his misery lessens as he approaches it. This teaches him to associate his misery with its absence, and the opposite of misery with its presence. It gradually becomes desirable as he changes his mind about its worth.

A Course in Miracles

Be happy and work with the Christ spirit on raising your vibration so that, even in their physical absence, they can’t lower you. They are operating in Ego illusion and we must walk away and let them learn on their own.

No one who learns from experience that one choice brings peace and joy while another brings chaos and disaster needs additional convincing. Learning through rewards is more effective than learning through pain, because pain is an ego illusion, and can never induce more than a temporary effect. The rewards of God, however, are immediately recognized as eternal.

A Course in Miracles

Twin Flames are a union of two Christ Consciousness individuals that share a single soul. If one of them has a very low vibration, we must leave them be and let the divine do it’s work.

You are still free to choose, but can you really want the rewards of the ego in the presence of the rewards of God?

A Course in Miracles

Divine Counterparts are the rewards of love. It’s the highest form of love you can have on this early world. Everyone else doesn’t compare.

THEY CAN SEE YOU: I have discovered that our celebrity counterparts can see us when we view their images. I use to just gaze into my counterparts eyes and any pictures I find of him, I’m immediately drawn to them. I was always drawn to his eyes. This can be a great exercise and knowledge for us non celebrity counterparts. I’ve done me and his timelines and I found some song lyrics that seem to be him responding to me just lovingly looking at him and his pictures. I’ve written about this and even made a video about it. I haven’t written an exercise for it but I explained how I discovered this in my book blog and you can find it here: Chapter 05: My Fandom and First Meeting When you view their images they can feel you and sense you. You are actually in connection with their higher self. I believe only Twin Flames can do this. I believe with anyone else, it may become toxic, so don’t worry about the Superfans trying to claim this or jealous people performing in desperation black magic, It’ll backfire, especially now that we have more information and grow in awareness. Keep send that loving towards them, when inspired. No, that does not mean sex magic, I believe that’s black magic. Send pure love, not masterbation sex magic.

Recommend reading materials:

  • Sacred world religions writings: stating the obvious here. The Bible; Book of Enoch; Book of Mormon; The Nag Hammadi; Pistis Sophia; Zohar; Dead Sea Scrolls; Qur’an; Vedas; Upanishads; Vedic Sutras; Bhagavad; Tantra; Dhammapada; The Five Classics; I Ching; Tao Te Ching; Egyptian Book of the Dead; Hermetic Texts; Orphic Poems; etc.
  • A Course in Miracles: The first edition of A Course In Miracles was published in 1975 by the Foundation for Inner Peace. Many other authors and influencers base their knowledge from the course, wither or not they have personally read the material or indirectly quote things from others whom have read it without reference. I have since started back peddling with books I’ve read in the past and/or put on the list of “to be read” when I was first on a spiritual path years ago. I’ve only knew some of the teachings and heard other quote it, but I have never read it fully. I have been listening to the audio format and I may be listening to it more as a form of a daily morning meditation since I have had a difficult time of focusing and silencing my mind. Listening to the audio seems to be assisting me. You may find out more about ACIM from their website.
  • Science of Mind by Ernest Holmes: first originally published in 1926, this book began its own movement classified as Religious Science. This movement had nothing to do with other faiths that use the word Science in its name. (i.e. Scientology, Christian Science) Science of Mind is a New Thought philosophy that incorporates spiritual tools of affirmative prayer, healing and creative visualization to transform lives and make the world more peaceful, harmonious, and prosperous. A community of people got together starting communities based on these teachings. Based in Golden, Colorado, Centers for Spiritual Living™ is a global community comprised of more than 400 spiritual communities, teaching chapters, study groups and other ministries in 30 countries. You may visit their website by clicking here: Centers for Spiritual Living

Just Another idea: Find a video of a teacher that you like (it doesn’t have to be spiritual, it can be any topic, even mathematics or childcare) and transcribe it! (Hey, I’m offering ideas. No, I didn’t do this, but it might be interesting to do.)

There’s so much you can do to occupy your mind and take the focus off of your counterpart. Let them go. Surrender. Be happy knowing you are already one with them. Be grateful, even if there’s no physical Union. You are forever one. Remember, it’s about the journey, not the destination.


I have heard of non celebrity counterparts that have been receiving messages from their celebrity counterpart, but it’s done “in secret.” Don’t settle for this. Don’t be a emotional side dish. You want the main course. You want physical union. Don’t settle to being a “secret”. This is equivalent to being “the other woman.” They are keeping you a secret while being a dog with everyone else. You are not made a priority by remaining a secret. Tell them to hit the road. Put your foot down on anything less than physical union. You deserve love. You deserve someone in your physical life. They are just taking you on an emotional roller coaster ride. All or nothing. Don’t be afraid to let this behavior and them go. Cry if you need to. Drop them and work on you. Raise your own vibrational alignment with divine source. Let them rise to you and meet you there. Be the Queen. Don’t settle for breadcrumbs. There is no almost, it’s either is or not. Let them go figure things out for themselves. I know you might view it as something is better than nothing. I’m telling you, you want it all or nothing. No secrets. Why are you a secret?

Hopefully, as time moves on and more people open up to the reality of twin flames, the celebrity counterpart won’t behave as bizarre like my Twin Flame with fake ass profiles and personalities, and they can be real and honest with you, with no mind games, you won’t need to be so stern with them. Some may have deep child wounds and need to be put into their place until they start being real with you. Don’t settle for mind games and only accept them being honest with you. Don’t stoop down to that level, make them level up to you.

Some manifestation may take time to unfold depending on where you are both at on your level of vibrations towards physical union. Let them go and you just focus on you. Maybe it’s a blessing and God is protecting you because they have became so toxic while in the Hollywood Elite Matrix. Let them drown. They make no use to you if they are pulling you down and refuse to change. Keep rising. It’ll be hard at first, like withdrawal, but you got this! Send them love and let go. Trust that the manifestation of physical union with your celebrity twin flame counterpart is on its way to you.


  • They are a celebrity and your Twin Flame, don’t settle for any profiles that isn’t a blue check mark legitimate verified profiles. How do you know it’s really them? It doesn’t matter if they do indirect post to their blue check mark profile “mirroring” your conversations. Fuck that. They keeping you a secret with that shit. How many others are they doing that to?
  • If they want to call, great! That caller ID better show their legitimate name.
  • You deserve to be TOP priority not put on end of list and they will talk to you when an opportunity opens in their “busy” schedule.
  • You should be included in all events and put on that special VIP list and given passes and tickets. Not one penny should be coming from your pocket. That’s for fans and you are NOT just some fan to them. They are you, you are them.

Blessings to you on your path to wholeness.

AN UPDATE: February 4, 2021

BOOM! just like that, I have found Chloe’s twin flame. It was during the last full moon cycle in December of 2020. I have some good amount of synchronicities with him as well. He’s also a Sun Pisces and Virgo Ascendent, like William. He has my Aquarius moon. William does have more water in his chart and Josh only has his sun that’s water Element. He’s more earth element. He is still older than Chloe and a few years younger than William. He also has hair and more Yang than William. I actually have more Yang than him though but he’s more balanced with his Yin/Yang energies according to his astrological chart. I don’t have a chart for Chloe, but I know mine and William.

Check out my story of how I found Josh here:

I have also realized Courtney “Love” Twin Flame. Read it here:

Are Twin Flames real? Are we destined to be together because we met them? Check out my article here:

More updates of finding others:

I also found another energy just like Billy Corgan, and what I believe could be a fragmentation of the soul. This seems different then Josh. I created new pages from this.


Timelines with Others: Elon Musk


Gosh. Am I to go back and review all 3 of them now???

Perfect love casts out fear.

If fear exists,

Then there is not perfect love.


Only perfect love exists.

If there is fear,

It produces a state that does not exist.

A Course in Miracles